25 Nov 2021
Re: TAT Picture # 01 Analysis (caps mine)
Fr: JKA 22M MDD, GAD,
Dyslexia, ADHD, Cluster A Personality Traits; cm: MALADAPTIVE DAYDREAMING
PAST: “Hi my name is
Jelo 13 years old now. I start playing violin when I was just 6 years old, all
of my family is a musician, and professional. My family always train me and
compete me, and I always win it easily, when I just 10 yrs old I got a multiples
of awards, tropies [sic] etc. because of that a lot of people call me “the
prodigy”
PRESENT: “But why am
I sad in the picture, even with the gift and talent that I have? Why! Why does
anyone ask me if I want this? Because of my STRICT PARENTS I can’t play with
friends, I can’t enjoy My child life! Yes I’m Blessed because of my talent, yes
I’m blessed because my family is rich, yes I’m blessed because my family is
PROUD of me. But I’m not lucky as like as Lilia (picture # 2 image) even she
doesn’t have my talent or rich family, she still got her FREEDOM. He study what
she really want, working hard not just to make her family proud, to give it
back what her parent’s sacrifices. Yes I love music, but I love HELPING people
more[.] I want to show them that even the’re not gifted or blessed like me they
still got the’re own advantages.
FUTRE: “Jelo became the mayor of the’re village. He help
his people not just in financial or programs he help people to see the’re own gift
he believe that EVERY PEOPLE IS SPECIAL.
Free Association on the
word “Freedom”:
“Freedom to do what
ever you love, … to do something. Limitless, … to do without conditions, … to
do what you see in your self, … to choose topic to topic, to be happy,
“Without Thinking that I’m NOT ENOUGH… my
limitation. I’m OK with this now, but need more PUSH to do it not just in
FANTASY Without thinking what’s other thinking in reality
“Tulad sa sabi ko
isa sa mga Grateful ako is yung FAMILY ko kasi SOBRANG BAIT at SOFT HEARTED
nila, di katulad ni Jelo (story one) na sobrang strikto ng parents nya.
Pero ang
problema kasi sakin ako mismo yung PUMIPIGIL sa FREEDOM ko. Kasi lahat ng gusto
kong gain Malaya kong nagagawa sa DAYDREAM ko pero ang kapalit nya noon
kinukulong ko sa daydream ko.
Lunod na lunod nako
sa daydream ko sarili ko para akong isdang nasa malalim na dagat na takot na
takot pumunta sa lupa kasi lagi kong iniisip na ISDA ako.
“Simula palang pag
ka bata ko kasama ko na daydream ko wala akong pake kahit wala akong KALARO sa
realidad ang importante sakin may LARUNA ako kasi lagi kongna iimagina na
kasama ako sa laruan ko tipong parang BUHAY sila, halus dun nag umpisa lahat
hanggang sa di ko na kailangan ng laruan para magkaroon ng kalaro. Oo malaki nagging
epekto sakin netong Anxiety, ADHD o kung meron man akong Dyslexia yan din. Kung
walaka akong daydream disorder Hindi magiging MASAYA childhood ko. Daydream ang
SUMASALBA sakin matagal ng MASARAP na pakiramdam na may TATAKBUHAN ka kapag may
panget na ng yare
at importate sa
lahat DAYDREAM KO SUMALBA SAKIN SA SUICIDE.
Kung gagawa man ako
ng isa sa pinaka malaking SACRIFICE sa buong buhay ko eto yung ITIGIL
DAYDREAMko. May pakiramdam to na mag TAKSIL ako pagkatapos lhat ng ginawa nila
para sakit, iiwan ko lang din sila. SOBRANG HIRAP sakin neto sobra. Hindi nila
alam na eto ang pinaka RISK na gagawin ko sa lahat, wsalang ibang makaka intindi
sa SACRIFICE na gagawin ko. Di nyo maiintindihan kasi ako lang naman KASAMA ng
dardream ko eh.”
