maladaptive dayreaming case

25 Nov 2021

Re: TAT Picture # 01 Analysis (caps mine)

Fr: JKA 22M MDD, GAD, Dyslexia, ADHD, Cluster A Personality Traits; cm: MALADAPTIVE DAYDREAMING

PAST: “Hi my name is Jelo 13 years old now. I start playing violin when I was just 6 years old, all of my family is a musician, and professional. My family always train me and compete me, and I always win it easily, when I just 10 yrs old I got a multiples of awards, tropies [sic] etc. because of that a lot of people call me “the prodigy”

PRESENT: “But why am I sad in the picture, even with the gift and talent that I have? Why! Why does anyone ask me if I want this? Because of my STRICT PARENTS I can’t play with friends, I can’t enjoy My child life! Yes I’m Blessed because of my talent, yes I’m blessed because my family is rich, yes I’m blessed because my family is PROUD of me. But I’m not lucky as like as Lilia (picture # 2 image) even she doesn’t have my talent or rich family, she still got her FREEDOM. He study what she really want, working hard not just to make her family proud, to give it back what her parent’s sacrifices. Yes I love music, but I love HELPING people more[.] I want to show them that even the’re not gifted or blessed like me they still got the’re own advantages.

FUTRE: “Jelo became the mayor of the’re village. He help his people not just in financial or programs he help people to see the’re own gift he believe that EVERY PEOPLE IS SPECIAL.

Free Association on the word “Freedom”:

“Freedom to do what ever you love, … to do something. Limitless, … to do without conditions, … to do what you see in your self, … to choose topic to topic, to be happy,

 “Without Thinking that I’m NOT ENOUGH… my limitation. I’m OK with this now, but need more PUSH to do it not just in FANTASY Without thinking what’s other thinking in reality

“Tulad sa sabi ko isa sa mga Grateful ako is yung FAMILY ko kasi SOBRANG BAIT at SOFT HEARTED nila, di katulad ni Jelo (story one) na sobrang strikto ng parents nya.

Pero ang problema kasi sakin ako mismo yung PUMIPIGIL sa FREEDOM ko. Kasi lahat ng gusto kong gain Malaya kong nagagawa sa DAYDREAM ko pero ang kapalit nya noon kinukulong ko sa daydream ko.

Lunod na lunod nako sa daydream ko sarili ko para akong isdang nasa malalim na dagat na takot na takot pumunta sa lupa kasi lagi kong iniisip na ISDA ako.

“Simula palang pag ka bata ko kasama ko na daydream ko wala akong pake kahit wala akong KALARO sa realidad ang importante sakin may LARUNA ako kasi lagi kongna iimagina na kasama ako sa laruan ko tipong parang BUHAY sila, halus dun nag umpisa lahat hanggang sa di ko na kailangan ng laruan para magkaroon ng kalaro. Oo malaki nagging epekto sakin netong Anxiety, ADHD o kung meron man akong Dyslexia yan din. Kung walaka akong daydream disorder Hindi magiging MASAYA childhood ko. Daydream ang SUMASALBA sakin matagal ng MASARAP na pakiramdam na may TATAKBUHAN ka kapag may panget na ng yare

at importate sa lahat DAYDREAM KO SUMALBA SAKIN SA SUICIDE.

Kung gagawa man ako ng isa sa pinaka malaking SACRIFICE sa buong buhay ko eto yung ITIGIL DAYDREAMko. May pakiramdam to na mag TAKSIL ako pagkatapos lhat ng ginawa nila para sakit, iiwan ko lang din sila. SOBRANG HIRAP sakin neto sobra. Hindi nila alam na eto ang pinaka RISK na gagawin ko sa lahat, wsalang ibang makaka intindi sa SACRIFICE na gagawin ko. Di nyo maiintindihan kasi ako lang naman KASAMA ng dardream ko eh.”